help me now
today i just receive an application form for Student Representative Council Commitee (SRCC)
i already know my name was been suggested by my Head Program last year
and i kinda wanna go for it before this.. but today
when i receive the form
i was like not really confidence with myself
i dont knw why
i'm like in dilemma
a part of my heart want it but not the other half...
this what the pro and cons that i get from this SRC thingyy...
~since i am aiming for Vice Chancellor Award, i need to have a post like SRCC bcoz the condition set tht i need to get Deanlist for every sem or at least 4 semester and has a post in university... now i already get Deanlist for 3 sem in a row.. (now am in 4th sem)...
~i think this is the time i need to overcome one of my weakness which is lack of self-confidence and self-esteem..
~this is the way tht i can be a more responsible person...
~i will get very busy and no more time for leisure
~i need to change my way of study which is b4 this i love to do revision or study based on my mood..
~i can't spend my time with my friends like usual anymore and it might be affected me bcoz i'm the kind who cant go on anywhere without my friend.. they are like my spirit...
~i'm afraid i cant divide myself between study and this SRC stuff..
feel like wanna crying now
if i dunt accept it means tht i've like break my Head of Program heart (to melancholic.. cant find another word.. ahahaha) bcoz by suggesting my name its mean tht she trust me
pluss most of the people in the admin kinda know me(most of them are my dad's friends) if i rejected this last minute its will gv them a bad impression toward me bcoz by taking the form just now they consider i accept it
but then i just dunno..hmmm
tomorrow i got a whole day to think
i need to send the form by thursday and on friday they will announce the candidate
and then the campaign started
on 15 jan the election day is started...
i need ur opinion guysss...
*** for those who already know me well, u knw me better...
***for those who dont really know me,i still need ur opinion or maybe sumthing tht can make me confidence again and of course i need all of ur support...